And the messages are of various levels. My favourite one says " I shall be nice this year" written by a kid. It has story to it, as one can assume the last year contained of acts that led up to this promise.
So I've been gone for a long time from the blog. My longest absence this far I think. So much have been going on and I don't feel like exposing myself through sharing it all. It can just be summed up as a lot has happened in various levels of my life and a lot of it has been really bad.
Years of therapy and medication has allowed me to get through this with strengths that I did'nt knew I had. But it has been a lonesome struggle and I'm not through it still. I feel like I just hit the atlantic of life and is now floating freely on the chaotic and unpredictable waves of emotion, thoughts and events.
Nothing will ever be the same and everything will keep changing. As it always have been. Although now I am the one who steers the raft, taking full responsibility over the decisions ahead. Maybe the blog will turn into something new. Almost like a message in a bottle since I'm not sure that anybody even reads it. Perhaps that's not even the point? The story is getting out there, the journey continues and with the staggering idea of that someone could find it, I keep on writing those scrolls.